FUCK OFF~

IM FUCKING PISSED.
NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME N NEITHER DO I
IT JUS APPEARS TT I CANT SHARE MUCH OF PERSONAL STUFFS
NABEI~

NO ONE TO SHARE WITH.
CAN ONLY VENT MY ANGER HERE
知我者莫若谁也

IT FELT LIKE MY HEART IS BLEEDING AND I FELT LIKE CRYING.
BUT I CANT
FRENS WHO I THINK ARE NICE ARENT TT NICE ACTUALLY
DISAPPOINTED. DISHEARTENED.
WORDS CANT DESCRIBE HW I FEEL NW. IM ALL ALONE

真是笑死我了

Dr Quek called regarding the nomination letter that i need him to write for the application of NUS Sch of Meds thru discretionary..

sad to say
1. not strong in CCA or community involvement programme
2. has not talents in music or sports, neither am i a national player

LOL. I was stunned. Dr Quek dropped me this question.

Dr Quek: js, i would like to knw from ur point of view, what makes you a good doctor?
Me: i care abt the people ard me and believe in the wellness of them
Dr Quek: i guess most of them would sae that as well. hmmm.. wat makes u stand out among them?
Me: hmmmm.. ehh... i dunno.
Dr Quek: then u better go think abt it. do u have any evidence tt shows u're strong in leadership or CIP
Me: No leh..
Dr Quek: haha. i will try to write the letter to the best of my capabilities

LOL. think it must have been a strenous process to write me a nomination letter bah. but it's a veri brilliant question. i guess the answer i gave, will be most of what the applicants would sae

SO WHAT MAKES ME A GOOD DOCTOR? WHAT MAKES ME STAND OUT AMONG THEM?
can someone help me answer them.. my english is C6 de.. vocab lagi jia lat.. and to a certain extent, i believe pple ard me knws me better than myself.

2ndly, why poly students cant apply thru the traditional way, but discretionary.. for ur info, discretionary only make up to max 10% of tht yr's cohort. why differentiate between JC n poly.. so JC students are more suitable in becoming doctors, while poly students are not? Nonsense!

my aim of doing human meds is cos i cant afford vet science, but i cant possibly tell them that right? they will be laughing their asses off man

was veri worried abt my future (academic wise), went to 莲山双林寺 (temple) to 求签.. got a 上(not too bad lot) 签. it's lot 44. the meaning goes like this
---> even Chiang was appointed a high official by the emperor at the age of 80, so why are you so anxious over ur achievement now. exercise patience and strive hard at the same time. u will sure succeed in the future.
----〉姜太公在八十才被文王丰为高官，你何必又那么着急呢？
Explanation: this lot ask me not to be anxious, jus wait and see first.. in the future sure have a big career de.. there are some details that i cant rmb and cant regurgitate. but it seems like a good lot. and hit right on the nail man. quite accurate.

so ya~ wait and see how lor~ who knws, maybe i cant be a western doctor, but a chinese sinseh~! LOL. but MC invalid de leh, no respect sia.. hmmm.. we shall see how.

n pple~ always rmb!
RESULTS NOT EQUAL TO UR CAREER OR FUTURE, IT'S THE ATTITUDE, MINDSET AND PERSEVERANCE TAT DETERMINE WHO YOU ARE IN THE FUTURE. DREAM IT DO IT. U HAVE A DREAM, U STRIVE FOR IT. DUN SAE AND DUN DO THEN MIGHT AS WELL DUN SAE OR DREAM ANYTHING.

i wish everyone all the best in your future endeavours. TAKE CARE~!

Finally

haha.. has been some time since i last updated my blog. sorri for those who ended up being disappointment due to the lack of update. since im kinda free nowadays, might as well jus blog lor..

im considered unofficially graduated liao.. RESULTS WILL BE OUT ON 13 MARCH (THURS)
LOLx.. good luck to everyone receiveing their results..
so the next concerned issue will be serving the nation.. kinda look forward to which unit i'll be sent to. dog unit? lolx.. hopefully..

i think got a couple of months b4 i got enlisted, everyone ard me like got a job liao(wah liew, sibei stress leh~!) and im still slacking.. but i'll have tonnes of time to work in the future, so why rush and gan chiong for these few months. or am i finding excuses? lolx..

since im finishing my tertiary education liao, it's time to think abt the next stepping stone to my future life. i've thought abt a few

1. vet science - abit impossible liao la, too expensive sia, i where got so rich. unless someone sponsors me for free la..

2. NUS sch of med - as mentioned earlier, 2 poly students got accepted. im nt exceptionally excellent in my academic wise, but i'll just gonna try my luck. u nvr knw what will happen

3. NTU Double degree (BSc, BTCM) - im quite fascinated by how tcm works actually, but thinking abt the 2 yrs in beijing turns me off a little.. so what to do.. im left with not much choices..

others - nus sch of life sciences, pharmacy. n NTU- biological sciences and biological chemistry and chemistry (just putting for the sake of putting, make my $10 application more worthwhile la)

soooooo.. recently had our official last caregrp chalet b4 graduation, not mani pple turned up, kinda disappointed, but it's still alright la.. the closer ones are these few liao lor.. mahjong, games, water bombs, cycling are how we spent our time there. i even whipped up a few dishes, but not to my satisfaction. maybe portion too big, so cant ensure quality control. LOL

hope to stay in contact with all my poly frens although sometimes it's tough, each has their own busy lives liao. hereby, i wish everyone the best and do take care. do ask me out for gathering worx~!