feel like going ard singapore to eat good food

i have always wanted to go ard singapore to try out new dishes or those popular dishes/stalls featured in magazines or television programmes.. but got no one to pei me de leh.. cos my closer frens are always hard on cash.. hmmm.. of course lar, i have no rights to interfere in how they spend their money mah.. so i jus sae sae only lor..

hmmm.. realli long time nvr go out with JAQLS for a good meal le.. realli long time ago.. what i can rmb is that we went dim sum buffet at a hotel which was like decades ago.. now i realli hope to revive this tradition to have meals together for us to catch up with each other also.. alot of things have been happening, n one after the other.. so irritating n depressing.. but i jus tell myself not to involve can liao lor.. realli long time nvr sit down with them at fine restaurants to eat together le.. even if have, also those hawker lar, fast food lar or jus sit down at void deck.. wanna go kbox or these also difficult.. so JAQLS.. save up arh.. we going to eat good food soon.. so i'll have to inform u all in advance so we can have nice food together.. DEAL

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SPEECHLESS, EVERYTHING'S JUS SO FUCKED UP
WAT'S HAPPENING TO ME?????

my driving instructor

firstly, i would like to sae tt i m not angry with him or anything, jus find him a veri interesting person, seriously..

1. sometimes he will ask me to stop by the side of coffeeshop so he can have his toilet break due to his HIGH TIDE

2. pass things to his son

3. ask me to book my test date while having lesson

4. suddenly go pay road tax

5. listen to old school songs

6. pluck his moustache, haha.. interesting right?

benjamin(poly fren) had his driving lesson with him this fridae, n as usual, my instructor mr lim, likes to discuss abt me with him during lessons.. i jus wonder why leh..funni hor..

mr lim: tt jin shun arh, got weird temper leh.. i was late for 10 mins and his face black like dunno what?

my explanation : no wonder he keep apologising to me la, i was wondering why he was so polite tt dae. i was waiting under the hot sun mah, i m not angry.. facing the hot sun of course my face will twitch n twist a little mah.. angry for what.. i m veri patient de hor..

mr lim: tt jin shun, cannot sae him de.. sae more abit arh, his face turned black n dun wanna talk liao..

my explanation: of course lar, u imagine ur engine keep stalling, of course face will turn black mah, n he didnt realli scold me alot during lessons mah.. nth to tok bcos he didnt tok to me also mah, then tok what? tok to myself meh?

mr lim: jin shun is quite humble.. hahahahahaha

my explanation : he said tt i will pass my practical test at my first attempt n i replied tt i wasnt confident la.. of course lar.. i was only at my 4th driving lesson, do u think u will be confident by tt particular period of time?

haha.. i jus cant stop thinking abt it.. shld i burst into laughter or what.. n stupid ben even agreed with him tt i m this kinda person.. mr lim wanted someone to assure him mah, n ben said ya.. idiot.. hahaha.. dun even wanna help me clarify.. lolx.. nvr mind la.. try to smile more when i m driving lor.. ltr he think i siao.. for nth smile for what.. lolx~!

jus a sudden thought

a bbq session with my friends on tuesdae allowed me to realise tt one of my frens, ah huat~!, was abit schizophrenic.. i was wondering what has made him become like this..

a few days ltr, i went to talk to him, we agreed to have a heart to heart session. so i was asking him, why didnt he wanna share his problems with his close frens or even me, since the 2 of us are quite close. n he said something tt realli touches my heart, realli deep down. i was taken back, cos he's the first one who's able to sae all these which i have been thinking of, thru out the yearss.. he told me

'jin shun, we are all jokers.. deep down at a little corner of our heart, it is dark n filled with spider webs and dust. these webs n dust actualli symbolise our problems, our unhappiness or unwillingness. frens ard us nvr notice this little dark corner of urs, even if they do, they do not realli care so much, as they think those will be cleared soon'

clear enough, it was what i m feeling. even when we feel down, we dun feel like sharing, we wan the pple ard us to feel happy, and not adding on to their worries. even when we tell them our problems, they do not realli care, as they think we will recover from it very soon or even tt we are kidding.. i think tt's realli true.. i've lost my laughter in sch, in life and everything.. weights are loading in rather than unloading from the stressful mind of mine. i've tried to remove them but i failed. i m wondering why. it must be the years of bottling myself up tt causes this. maybe i will explode 1 dae, veri soon, i wonder.

maybe guys do have PMS also bah.. i m not sure.. but sometimes, when i m quiet or alone, i will think.. think deeply.. looking at the dark corner of my heart, trying to solve or remove them but it always tends to accumulate even b4 i have the time to remove them.. frens asked me why didnt i share my problems, maybe i dun see a need to it bah.. issit? i also not sure.. maybe it's the habit tt has be formed unconsciously thru out the yrs bah.. anyway, i m fine.. jus hope to be the cheerful me back again.. i wanna find the real side of me.. please.. i m in search of it now.. n i think i will find it real soon.. take care all~

my driving lessons

Monday:
had my first driving lesson with michelle's granduncle, Mr Lim. when in the car, he started explaining all the different parts of the car n the function of it.. well, i alreadi knw it b4 hand n he even see it thru.. he was asking did i drive b4 n i said i did.. lolx.. smart arh.. from 1 look he knws i m familiar with the car..

n then it was my turn sitting on the driver's seat.. adjusted the position of the seat n rear view mirror.. i started to go off.. lolx.. quite interesting lar.. but sometimes incoordination abit bad arh.. he says i m not bad.. or was it jus an encouragement for me? lolx.. drove ard toa payoh.. round n round.. engaged till gear 3 n changing of lanes.. lolx..

Thursdae:
my 2nd driving lesson. 10 mins late.. but he still end the lesson on time.. who to blame.. myself lor.. i was extremely tired, back from chalet so maybe i cant concentrate bah.. i didnt manage to drive smoothly todae.. car keep stalling.. todae drove from tpy to ubi n back.. scary lar.. esp at ubi lar.. damn lots of car.. he even ask me to park for his toilet break.. LOL.. funni guy leh.. engaged till gear 4, u-turn was scary.. left turn, right turn.. all these lor.. hmmm.. he thinks i m an expert n teach me so fast sia.. i m not lor.. i nervous like siao leh.. lolx.. overall not veri satisfied.. keep stalling till i veri frustrated.. lolx.. when back at tpy, the comments he gave me is
1. dun grab the steering wheel so hard (cos i nervous mah esp when he's loud)
2. no other comments liao.. u r good enough~

LOL.. dunno lar.. see hw lor.. third lesson on mondae.. n final theory test on Tuesdae.. hope i pass sia.. then i can book for my practical test liao.. realli hope everything can 1 time pass.. n get my car soon.. HOPEFULLY