pondering abt my future again..

recently heard abt 2 poly students accepted into the NUS Yong Loo Lin Sch of Medicine.
It was the first time they have accepted poly students.
will it be me after my NS.

seriously, i've always wanted to take up a challenging career and at the same time, able to offer help to the others. being a vet seems tough for me, with the school fees piling up to about $175,000 for 5 yrs and tt excludes the living expenses.

however, Sch of Medicine not veri cheap also.. abt $17,000 per yr.. how would my family be able to support me. yes.. i understand that results are veri impt.. but my family is not financially capable of sending me overseas or to study a premium course in the local universities. but the first issue is will i be even accepted?

somehow it makes me envy those above average or pple from wealthy family. they do not need veri excellent results, jus average.. and they can go overseas to study, with nothing much to worry about. but for me.. so what if i do well. it's veri difficult also..

the irony here is
1. being smart n poor OR
2. being average and wealthy.

it's realli a contradicting situation here. for nw, i shall await for God's decision. he hasnt tell me anything yet. :)

hmmm.. 2 more papers left

left saprn and bpharm..
then attachment coming soon liao..
5 mths quite long also..
dunno will be veri tired or not.. lol..
jia you everybody

Jus as I expected.

Hohoho.. Jus as i expected. I failed~!

1 immediate failure - fail to give way to right of way. i wanna go liao then car dash out. jia lat.. dead

26 demerit points.
- fail to confirm safety during both parking..
- but instructor din tell me must check leh.. lol.. nvr mind.. learn from mistakes..
- fail to check blindspot
- change lane abruptly

i kena a malay tester, ASIS BIN WASAIL. he's quite a nice person.. thank you sir. he gave me alot of encouragements.

2nd attempt is on end 0f oct. 2 more months.. sian sian sian..

it's ok.. life is full of ups n downs then will be balanced mah.. take it easy man..

i will jia you for the next attempt de..

:)

TO BEN N KIM:
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR TAKING THE EFFORT TO COME DOWN AND SUPPORT ME AND AT THE SAME TIME SORRY TT I DISAPPOINTED BOTH OF YOU.
AS FOR CHANGING INSTRUCTOR, I THINK NOT NECESSARY BAH. I KNOW YOU BOTH MEAN WELL BUT HE'S NOT TT BAD ALSO LAR.

人算不如天算

ben told me something meaningful todae whereby it has been ages since i heard of it..

By Not Being Confident, I've Alrready Lost Half The Battle.

thanks ben. finally u said something useful.. lolx.

It's Coming.. Real Soon.. I will Jia you de.. cos i've been pestered by it for so long...

I am so sicccckkkk..

2 days back had a sore throat..
inflamed.. chest tightness.. went to see a doctor..
doc sae i need salbutamol inhaler.. sian..
spent $32..
doc still chatted alot with me.. cos i have tachycardia and BP was abit high.
recovering le.. i shld have went to the doc earlier..

waited 5 mths for my driving test. and it's gonna arrive in a couple of weeks time
sian.. i still think my driving not veri good but i will do my veri best.
have been receiving alot of encouragements from frens.. thank u all..
i think i have been taking it TOOO seriously.. im stressin myself too much
i will try to be positive abt failure bah..

went driving todae.. circuit.. was quite contented actualli but stil have to buck up a little..
clutch control still not good.. maybe due to my big FOOT. always kena stuck
sian.. lol..
spend quite alot on driving liao.. dun wish to drag on..
GOD, Guan Yin Ma, please bless/boh-pi me..
thanks~

lesson learnt~
- take failure positively and life would be much brighter.

haix.. sian..

my instructor changed a new car.. i m SOOOO not used to it..
from nissan sunny to new de toyota vios.. although wont jerk so much..
but i jus couldnt get use to it..
i mount kerb.. i strike pole down.. like nobody's business.. haix..
i m dead..
sure fail the 1st time de..
waste money..
i m so guilty..
sucks to the core..
booooo~!